EKG, Echocardiogram and a Quick Pity Party

Yesterday, Emilie had to have an EKG and echocardiogram.  Nothing new, just tests that are done prior to each chemo treatment.   As she was having her echo in the darkened room, while happily watching Hannah Montana, I was having a pity party for us without the cake and balloons.  I wondered why this child of mine had to go through cancer and why I had to sit and watch her heart working on a monitor.  In the last three months, I have seen images of practically every part of her body.  Really?? I thought the only ultrasound images that I should have to experience are those during pregnancy.  As the tech did her job, I quickly left our pity party and realized that I was witnessing a perfectly designed heart.
A heart made by the God who loves Emilie very much!
A heart that has endured horrible cancer meds.
A heart that has endured a lot of sadness.
A heart that loves others.
A heart made by God!

I thought of my "Emilie" pregnancy and how I loved hearing her heart beat at each doctor's visit and how I loved seeing her little body in the ultrasound images.   While pregnant with Emilie, I had a favorite song by Steven Curtis Chapman call Fingerprints of God.  The lyrics perfectly matched my feelings and since I'm not that great with "words", I planned on using the lyrics on a scrapbook page documenting Emilie's life in my belly.  Never got to the scrapbook page, but since this blog is our new scrapbook.....here goes!

Never has there been and never again

Will there be another you

Fashioned by God's hand and perfectly planned

To be just who you are

And what He's been creating

Since the first beat of your heart

Is a living, breathing

Priceless work of art

And I can see the fingerprints of God

When I look at you

I can see the fingerprints of God

And I know it's true

You're a masterpiece that all creation

Quietly applauds

And you're covered with

The fingerprints of God